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Sunday, April 20, 2008
it sunday.
not just any sunday.
cos this sunday, im not spending it with my family.
or rather my whole family is spending sunday without me.
and its all because of this bloody sickness.
i think i kinda sorta fought with someone.i told him i'll msg him when i feel less moody cos i didn't wanna make him worry like he did last night. i told him i dont know whats up with my mood swings. i told him i think it's pms or maybe cos im sick and always too tired to do anything. thats why i get annoyed and agitated so easily. i told him.
I.TOLD.HIM.bloody hell.
but he still has to go and say:
'fine.. you're right. don't tell me why or what is making you feel moody..haha in fact dont tell me anything. its all making sense now.. haha man this is so common i get it too many times.'fuck you for adding the haha's. i know you didnt mean them.but i know you meant every fucking thing you said otherwise.fuck you for being so pushy.fuck you for making me so darn mad.no.you know what?fuck me.i knew i shouldn't have fallen.i knew i shouldn't have started caring.i knew you werent cut out for the part.i knew it.i knew.but still i went for it.for god fucking sake shiela.when will you ever listen to yourself?.im not ready for this.im not ready for your possesive and protecive ness.im not ready for any of it.so can i just back off now?.you dont even try to understand me.YOU DONT EVEN TRY.you dont think before you speak.you dont think about how it might make me feel.in fact, i dont think you dont think of anything.maybe its just the mood talking.but maybe its just reality sinking in.i cant do this.i just cant.is it already to late to walk away?Labels: jump on the bandwagon.
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Sunday, April 20, 2008
it sunday.
not just any sunday.
cos this sunday, im not spending it with my family.
or rather my whole family is spending sunday without me.
and its all because of this bloody sickness.
i think i kinda sorta fought with someone.i told him i'll msg him when i feel less moody cos i didn't wanna make him worry like he did last night. i told him i dont know whats up with my mood swings. i told him i think it's pms or maybe cos im sick and always too tired to do anything. thats why i get annoyed and agitated so easily. i told him.
I.TOLD.HIM.bloody hell.
but he still has to go and say:
'fine.. you're right. don't tell me why or what is making you feel moody..haha in fact dont tell me anything. its all making sense now.. haha man this is so common i get it too many times.'fuck you for adding the haha's. i know you didnt mean them.but i know you meant every fucking thing you said otherwise.fuck you for being so pushy.fuck you for making me so darn mad.no.you know what?fuck me.i knew i shouldn't have fallen.i knew i shouldn't have started caring.i knew you werent cut out for the part.i knew it.i knew.but still i went for it.for god fucking sake shiela.when will you ever listen to yourself?.im not ready for this.im not ready for your possesive and protecive ness.im not ready for any of it.so can i just back off now?.you dont even try to understand me.YOU DONT EVEN TRY.you dont think before you speak.you dont think about how it might make me feel.in fact, i dont think you dont think of anything.maybe its just the mood talking.but maybe its just reality sinking in.i cant do this.i just cant.is it already to late to walk away?Labels: jump on the bandwagon.
